Day +108

Alicia is still showing signs of improvement, except in the eating department. Although this morning was the first morning in almost 2 months where she ate. She had 2 mini Cinnamon rolls that A friend made for her son her on the floor. I was sooooooooo happy. I made such a huge fit over it but the excitement was soon smashed.

Alicia is on a very big kick about wanting to go home. She has been asking ALL morning if it was time to go home yet. I keep telling her that if she keeps eating and getting stronger than it would be soon but that is not good enough. Every Nurse or Doctor that has walked in our room this morning Alicia has asked if she can go home. It makes me so sad I just want to bawl. Last night I had a dream about our families Thanksgiving, and our family all together. We are so home sick. Yesterday my family had a Baby Shower and when I called home all I heard was the laughter and it hurt my heart bad. I told them to find the biggest doll or teddy bear and sit in a chair and put a beer in my hand and do not let anyone sit one me. My sister laughed but she did it. Erika was there and she made she I was included in everything. At least I knew my name was being mentioned alot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well the Doctors just rounded on us and I kinda lost it. I tried not to cry but it did not work. Do you know how hard it is to have someone you love as much as I do Alicia ask to go home. I still have tears rolling down just thinking about it. I told the doctor I wanted some time frame or plan as to what is happening with us going home. I told her I needed to know, even if it was going to be a very long time I needed to know and she told me it was hard to tell, that she has seen a big improvement in Alicia in the last week but she still has alot to over come before we will be able to be released. Alicia is on alot of IV meds that needed to be changed to oral and that would take time she said. She also told me she was for sure it would be at least 2-3 more weeks.

Sorry today is not a happy one for me. I miss my family very bad and I have not seen my Grandsons in over 4 months and now it looks like it might be another 4 months before I get to see them. I will write more today when I am feeling a little better.